OS - Why do you always smile Khushi?

Why do you always smile Khushi?

Arnav was sitting on his bed, thinking about his wife, Khushi. He first met her in her college function. He went there as a chief guest.

After the function, he was moving towards his car… When he heard someone calling him as “Arnavji…. Arnavji”. He turned towards back to see a girl of 21 running towards him.

The girl came towards him , took a deep breath and said “Arnavji, I like you”

Arnav was shocked and thought that she is one of the spoilt girls.

“Look, Go and search someone to warm your bed… I’m not the one for you”Arnav threw the word not giving a look about her innocence that was reflecting in her eyes.

He was shocked finding her smiling brightly at him, cursing her in his mind, he left the place.

It’s been 1 week since the incident happened. His sister compelled him for marriage. He reluctantly agreed after her emotional blackmail. He went to see the girl, but was shocked finding the same girl there.

He went towards her and said…

“Huh… You are the same girl right. I know you middle class girls will do anything for money. I will marry you, but only for my sister. Don’t even think about living a happily ever after. I won’t love such a characterless girl” Arnav spat hard words at her, but was again shocked finding his smiling brightly.

“I won’t think about happily ever after Arnavji” Saying she left the place.

His marriage happened in a grand manner because of his ever so emotional blackmailer, his sister.

It’s their wedding night. Arnav entered his room and saw his new bride waiting for me. He locked the door , went towards her and pulled her out of the bed.

“Don’t even think about getting pleasure from me. I would rather touch a prostitute than a gold digger like you.” Arnav spoke rudely to her but was again shocked finding her smiling at him.

“I don’t even think about pleasure in my life Arnavji” Khushi said, took a pillow and slept on the floor.

From that day , Arnav and Khushi never crossed each other’s way. They lived separately in the same room.

One day Arnav same home drunken, because someone spiked his drink in the part he went to attend. He entered his room only to find wife awake Khushi waiting for him. He went towards her and started kissing her. Khushi didn’t stop him. She let him do whatever he wanted.

Next day morning, Arnav woke up with heavy head ache. He was shocked finding himself and Khushi naked hugging each other. He understood what had happened. Khushi also woke up feeling his moment beside her.

“You used my unconscious state to satisfy your need. I can’t believe you can stoop so low. You have such a cheap mentality Khushi. Don’t even come near me” Arnav said not knowing what happened day before, but again he was shocked finding her smiling at him.

“I won’t even touch you Arnavji” Khushi said and stood up holding the bedsheet and left to washroom, not even caring about the pain in her abdomen.

After two month, they got to know Khushi was pregnant. Whole family was happy, except Arnav. When they were alone in the room.

“I don’t Know whose child you are bearing. Don’t even thinking you can blackmail using this child as pawn” Arnav tried his last attempt to break her, but again shocked finding her smiling at him.

“I won’t use this Child to blackmail you, Arnavji” Khushi said and left the room.

It’s Khushi’s 7th month. Arnav was searching for something in cupboard, when he found a diary. He opened it, only to find “Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada” written in the diary in Bold Letters. He was about to turn next page and read, when he heard door opening sound. So he quickly entered the restroom with the dairy.

He opened it and started reading the only paragraph she had written on it.

“I was orphan, my masi and musa adopted me, not thinking me as their child but as their servant. I studied with my parent’s money they left for me. I met Anjaliji in temple. She told me about her brother, Arnav Singh Raizada to me. I fell in love with him. I thought he will erase all the pain that I had gone through in my life. When I first me him in college, I voiced out my liking towards him, He said harsh words to me. I smiled because I know he don’t like girls throwing at him. He came to meet me as a groom, he hurt me, I smiled because I know he don’t like this marriage. He gave pain to me in our wedding night. I smiled because I know he hate me. He hurt me, after that beautiful night he gave me. I smiled because I know he don’t remember anything. He hurt me, speaking bad about the child I’m bearing. I smiled, because he made me hate myself. I wish, one day I can free him from this torture, because I love him - Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada , may be soon to be Khushi Gupta.”

When he finished reading this, Arnav was in tears. He understood her pain. He felt like killing himself for hurting her and giving pain to her.

From that day, his behaviour towards her changed. He started caring her, started loving her, started giving her the affection she wanted. Khushi was confused with his change.

It’s Khushi’s 9th month. Arnav and Khushi was alone in the house as everyone went to temple. Suddenly Khushi started shouting in pain.. Arnav rushed towards her to hold, but Khushi backed off..

“I know you hate my touch. Dont touch me”Khushi said in her pain.

Arnav closed his eyes, hearing the same word once he said to her.

“Shut up Khushi… This is not the time to speak about this”Arnav said angrily and lifter her.

After 20 minutes, he admitted Khushi in hospital. he was tensed seeing her pain. Before getting inside the ICU, Khushi gave him a bright smile even after having so much pain. He didn’t understood the reason of her smile.

He asked her, “Why do you always Smile Khushi?”

“Because No one will see how broken I’m inside” Khushi said smiling at him, tears were flowing from her eyes.

After 3 hours of operation, doctor came out and said

“Mr.Raizada, Mrs.Raizada gave birth to baby girl.. But”

Arnav was happy hearing this, but his happines was short lived

“But?”

“Sorry, your wife passed away, because this was a complicated pregnancy for her. We asked her to abort but she denied. She asked us to give this letter to you” Doctor said, giving the letter and left the place.

Arnav was broken with this news, all his hope crashed down. He looked at the letter in his hand and opened, only to read..

“I know Arnavji, I wont be alive after giving birth to my baby. Name her as Ashi Gupta. I know you don’t want this burden, so Im requesting you to admit her in sunshine orphanage. You can use the money from my accout for her expense. I had save enough for her with my part time job. Sorry If I did hurt you - Khushi Gupta”

Arnav cried thinking about his fate. He hate himself for giving so much pain to her. He entered the ICU and saw Khushi’s dead body.

He went towards her, kissed her lips and said,

“Khushi.. she is Ashi Gupta Singh Raizada. She is my life.. She will get the best in her life. I will take care of her. I love you. I’m sorry” Arnav cried hugging her.

From then, Arnav started loving his daughter like anything. He gave her all the love in this world. She became his world. He is still living in guilt for giving his Khushi so much pain.

Now, He is seeing his Khushi in her daughter’s smile. It resembles her smile. Her smile is the only memory he has.

THE END